Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Just a Part of My Story:

About 3 years ago is when it all started... The day I will never forget... I looked up into my little sister's green eyes as I knelt on the ground. They were bloodshot and swollen, and her face was streaked with bitter tears.
"What's wrong." I asked her.
With a shaky voice she responded, "Theo touched me."
I froze. Confusion and fear surrounded me as if it bled from the walls. Immediately. I went to my mother; All she did was yell at Ashley. When she calmed down she told us that she would talk to Theo, her husband, and everything would be okay, but she was very wrong... Theo denied the fact that he molested her, and said it was a misunderstanding, and that "he would never do such a thing." Theo shook his head slowly; a look of pure shame hung on his face. Being the gullible child I was at the time, I let the idea, of Theo touching Ashley, go. We were told not to tell anyone of what happened. We stayed quiet until Ashley went on her trip with my father to Hawaii. While on the plane, Ashley whispered to Kinsey, my step sister, "Promise not to tell dad?" Kinsey nodded curiously, but this secret was not meant to be hidden. After hearing what Theo had done to Ashley, Kinsey went to my father straight away. Little does she know that she was our savior that day. Meanwhile, I was staying at my older sister's house. Jackii drove me home, when it was time to go. After she dropped me off, it wasn't long before she came back through the door to tell us that Nate's (her husband) grandmother had just died, and she needed me to look after the kids, so Nate could cope. I had no idea that what she just said was a lie. Excitingly, I jumped back into her car. Once we were on the freeway, Jackii started acting strange. I asked if something had happened.
"Yes."
"Is it something bad?"
"It's something very bad, Tina."
I watched her, confused and scared. She then explained that Kinsey told my father what had happened, who then called my older brother Ben, who called Jackii as she was heading home after dropping me off. Constantly, he told her, "Get Tina out of that house!" Later I was interviewed, and recorded by my older siblings. Unfortunately, I couldn't stay there, stay safe, forever. My mother came and picked me up a couple days later. I had to pretend that everything was okay while Jackii went to court to try to get me back. During that time, I was scared for my life. I stayed as far away as Theo as possible. Eventually, a police officer came to our front door. He made Theo sign something, then escorted me from my home, where Jackii was waiting down the street, so my mother and Theo wouldn't know where I was.
When I look back to when I lived with my mother and Theo, these memories of being touched in strange ways by Theo, came to mind. I now realize that I, too, was molested...
Ashley and I moved in with my father and step mother. My mother hardly fought for us. She used to call regularly, but one day it just all stopped. Then we were both neglected by our step mother when a mother is what we needed most. Our step mother would regularly yell at us, say that she never wanted us, called us a burden. We would always find her drunk. And what scared me for life: With a single glance she told me that I have no friends and that I never will.
Because of all of this I now have abandonment, self esteem, and many more issues.
But finally, things might get somewhat better. My father is divorcing my step mother.
This is only part of my story... But everyday I move forward in hopes that there will be a happy ending...

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